I’m About to Embarrass Myself on the Internet: AKA Starting to Run Again

I ran a marathon in 2013 and it was one of the best experiences of my life.

I loved the adrenaline and the feeling of completing something so difficult. Disgustingly, I even loved the moments of agony and despair. But I loved the training process the most.

This was my first marathon, so I decided to train with a running group. We’d meet every Sunday morning before the sun even came up and I never struggled to pop out of bed when the alarm sounded at 4am. I would even go if it was raining outside. I was a woman possessed.

Now lemme be clear. I am NOT a morning person. When my alarm goes off at 8 am now, I roll over and hide under the covers until my boyfriend taps me on the head and tells me it’s now 8:30.

The camaraderie of the running group was just so awesome. I loved knowing that there were people waiting for me. I never wanted to miss a Sunday because I knew that if I skipped one run, it would quickly spiral and I would be woefully unprepared for 26.2 miles.

Running the sydney marathon
Please forgive the awful sunglasses. They were fake Oakleys. I thought I was cool…

I had every intention of signing up for an ultramarathon after that. If I could do 26.2, then why couldn’t I do 30? Maybe even 50?

But life got in the way. A few months after that marathon, I moved to a completely different country, and I haven’t really run since. I tried to find other running groups, but there were language barriers and I got lazy. I quickly went from being in marathon shape to not running for several months. Then it just sort of felt too hard to start again.

It’s been almost four years since I’ve laced up my sneakers and ran for more than 30 minutes at a time. I miss it a lot. I find myself craving that solitude, that time to think, that feeling of pushing my body past its limits, that feeling of accomplishment.

So I’m going to start running again and I plan to use this blog and this Youtube channel to document my journey.

It’s going to be difficult. I currently live at over 7,000 feet above sea level. The only exercise I do is about 30-40 minutes of yoga a day, which has kept me feeling strong, but has not exactly given me much cardio practice.

I bought a brand new pair of running sneakers last year with the good intentions of starting up my running again. I’ve worn them twice. Both times were on an airplane.

That’s why I’m documenting this. That’s why I’m announcing it to the world. I want accountability.

I also want to help people who feel like they’re in the same boat, people who maybe don’t have running partners or groups to join, but still want to lace up their sneaks.

I’ll be there with you, sweating, suffering, and swearing.

I’ll be posting live updates on Instagram Stories, weekly videos on Youtube, and probably on Facebook, too. If you want to be part of my virtual running club, join me any of those platforms and let’s get running!

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